The truth always comes out no matter if people want it to or not.
Tonight I finally found out for certain if two people that well less than two months ago were two of the most special people in my life are now dating. They both chose to shut me off about two months ago, and now are important people to one another. It's very sad to me that I had to ask about it, but in my heart I already knew what was going on. I'm more hurt that I lost two special people that I was so good to, more so than I am that they're together. I always said I only wanted complete happiness for each of them, and well I guess they found that through each other. It just sucks that it was at the expense of me. Not even sure how I will come to terms with this or what I will do to deal with it.
For tonight I have nothing really more to say about it other than that I'm hurt. I'm hurt I lost two people. Two people I tried to give the world to. Maybe I'm the one that's doing things wrong. When will my kindness pay off?
I have no more words. I'm more hurt inside than I have ever been. It's not about two people finding love or lust or whatever. It's about two people abandoning and leaving behind someone whom was such a great friend.
Until next time, if there is a next time....
-C
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Monday, January 7, 2013
Lessons
Often in life we take things for granted without even really knowing that we are doing so. We usually don't notice until whatever we have taken for granted is gone. Whether it be a friendship, or a relationship... We usually notice after we have lost that relationship. That, I think is what teaches us lessons and makes us better people for our future. We don't get a book on how to live life and how to treat everyone. We get these instructions from watching others grow and through growing ourselves. If we all knew everything life would be boring.
Nobody ever says life is easy and if they do they are lying.
This year I want to cut down on the amount of things I take for granted and try to genuinely focus on the people who don't take me for granted. I try really hard to keep every friendship up to par, and really keep in contact. Everyone is busy but we can make time this year. I'm damn tired of holding onto people who walk out on me so easily. And I know my iPad is tired of me writing about it. So here is to forgetting the past and to creating our future,
Until next time,
-C
Nobody ever says life is easy and if they do they are lying.
This year I want to cut down on the amount of things I take for granted and try to genuinely focus on the people who don't take me for granted. I try really hard to keep every friendship up to par, and really keep in contact. Everyone is busy but we can make time this year. I'm damn tired of holding onto people who walk out on me so easily. And I know my iPad is tired of me writing about it. So here is to forgetting the past and to creating our future,
Until next time,
-C
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