What are we even doing? Do you know? Because I sure and the fuck do not. Do you know what you're set on this earth to do? Do you know what you want to do? Or what your real purpose is? Are you just getting by, or are you living?
These are things that popped into my head when I was driving home from work today. I feel like I'm just getting by. I'm not really living anymore. We all just live to see our birthdays, we get older but what does that get us? Closer to death- yea shitty sounding not trying to be negative but what are we really doing if we aren't living life to the fullest. We constantly try to better ourselves to get jobs that we love because we have to get them to do things we love. We create this life we have I don't understand why we all can't make it easy. Like why not allow gay people to marry, it has no impact on your humanity. You're not going to die because I'm gay or want to marry my wife. It does not directly effect you, my unhappiness not being able to marry someone I love effects me. Okay I'm getting way off track here. Back we go.
I don't want to live life anymore just to live to see tomorrow. I want to live to live. Does that make sense? Probably not. I don't want to just go to work tomorrow because I have to... I want to want to go to work. We party our asses off and feel like shit the next day for what? I think is because most of us are going out and trying to find someone we connect with, and liquid courage is a lot easier. Because you know what life is all about to me? Not working to get by... Not working to work.... Or working because we love it. Life is about finding love and being so madly and deeply in love that nothing else matters. I would work at the worst job ever if I could find the love of my life that sees me the same way. I thought I had that but apparently it was just me. Anyway, life is about love damnit. If everyone would stop being assholes we could probably make more people fall in love.
Okay I did not get out of this blog what I wanted to. My heads not clear anymore. All my thoughts are jumbled now. I'm done..... Literally.
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