We all can agree that I'm just not holding up my end of the bargain when it comes to these promises I make to blog on a daily bases. I'm going to try try try try try...
I usually decide to get on here when I feel like I am losing control emotionally. It helps me gather my thoughts even if I'm not writing it all down in this blog, it is still my escape. It has been two months since the breakup... not only the breakup of a girlfriend, but also a girl FRIEND. I lost two people two months ago, and not by my choice. Two people who were super close to me, and just decided to give up on me. I rarely EVER give up on ANYONE. Still two months later my stomach drops when anything reminds me of them. I lose it. I am not afraid to say I miss both of them. I lost two best friends that day. ALL TO DISTANCE. If I was around them, I would look them in their eyes and make them understand how much I care for them, how much I need them, and let them know I will do better for "US."
So Friday is supposed to be the day the world ends. And I call bullshit. We are not going anywhere. We will live another day and I PROMISE to do BETTER. People I'm screaming from the top of my lungs, GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE. Not to be your lover.... not to be your sometime friend- but to be your friend, your shoulder to cry on, your PERSON. Let me be that person again. So if we live to see another day- WHICH we WILL... I will do better. I CAN DO BETTER.
So tired of people giving up on me.
DON'T give up.
Until next time,
-C
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